And I feel so different. Even though I have cheated far more than is probably safe, I keep trying to look at it from an intellectual place, analyse and learn from it. This round feels different. I think I feel more committed to long term: not just long term as in the next 30 days but long term as in the rest of my life.
Since I was 11 years old I have fought my weight, fought my body, and fought my feelings. I feel like Weight Loss Apocolypse, along with my spiritual foundation as a Jehovah's Witness has changed me profoundly. It has been 6 months since I discovered this method of body awareness and mind/body HCG and I can say definitively that this has stuck.
It has been 5 months since I have looked in the mirror and thought I hated my body.
It has been 5 months since I have pinched fat on myself.
It has been 5 months since I have thought of staying home because I hated how I looked in my clothes.
It has been 5 months since I tried to "punish" myself in some way or another because of a number I saw on the scale.
Now, if I can just finish a FULL 40 day round, I will be a brand new person! Hey, I think I already am! Thank you Robin Phipps Woodall.
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